Itchy heart??

sometimes i jus feel so down, wan to scold or hate myself.. maybe here is the place to frustrate them out, but of course not all of them.. seems like i'm going to fall sick again...

there are also quite a lot of things i wan to buy for myself but i need to control.. money doesnt come tat easy.. i think i need shirt, t-shirt, shoes for the new year... maybe should take some time to go for some real shopping. who wan to go? but i think shopping with me is a torture... haiz..